I say I don't mind but I do

I keep saying ' it's ok ' ' don't mind , I can cope with it myself..' with a damn smile face i have but it's really really hurt me , it does. What is Best friend? A friend with a BEST in front of it that's all?Well!

My dear best friend, I have somethings nonsense to crap out here.Birthday,mine.Where are you?You know my birthday pass in a cyber cafe ? You think it's funny?You know that i willing someone to accompany me ,at least make it as a usual birthday,but where are you?With a sms wishing and wishing through facebook which same with those i get from strangers~~Well!You said you are tired working for the weekdays,my dear best friend , my birthday is on Sunday and I don't even get a single call from you.You busy on somethings?Perhaps.

I tried to date you , tired working on weekdays is the reason you gave and you told try to hang you on weekends.I do.Weekends,you hang up with friends that I know too and you said that you are hanging up with friends,it's sound as 'Don't disturb me, I wanna hang up with friends.' though I know them .What am I?

Yes, I'm a stingy guy!

The one you like asked for your help on transalation work , you have no idea on it and asked for my help . The time is 12a.m. , I did help you because of the B.E.S.T. in front of the word 'friend' although I'm not willing to do it, I force myself,I do.How stupid am I......

I appreciate it, I do. When I need help ,I really need it......I called you 1.30p.m. You told me you lack of sleep because of you started your sleep at 6a.m. It's ok ,you can reply me that you will help later or what else , you don't. Keep said that you are tired , very tired....that's all.....

I am so sorry that disturb your sweet dream.Very sorry about it!

You know. A feel named 'cry ' that I had said good bye to it before is pressing on my chest , it's not worth to do it though it's is really hurt....

Best friend......I'm begin to be reality......